Let Me Tell You What Happened
In two days, I’ll turn 40.
I can say this, I’ve felt every year of my 30s that led up to now. The heartbreaks, the highs and lows, the hope, and the hard lessons that shaped me into who I am now.
I’ve been quiet for a while, I know. No new music, posts, or Focused clothing that you all so gratefully supported. And I want to tell you why.
I had a change in my life at age 29 that set my 30s up to be some of the most humbling yet transformative years so far. Within these years, I moved from DC to Atlanta for 5 years, and eventually to L.A (for 5 more years). I was chasing purpose, dreams, just chasing something I couldn't quite name yet. The pandemic hit, and everything I thought I was building started to take a hit. Money disappeared. Opportunities dried up. The people I loved and were connected to the most started leaving this world one by one. Finances weren’t holding up, so finding a more affordable place to live was #1 on the list. But being approved for a place never happened. I didn’t have a car, I didn’t have stability, my things were in storage, and soon, I didn’t have a home.
Set the scene* The year is 2024…
After a short stay with a friend, I lived wherever I could for 7 months. Hotels, rooms on AirBnB, house sitting, rental cars, my ex’s car, even a U-Haul once. I rode buses late at night after work, and walked miles all day until I figured out my next stay for the night. There were nights I didn’t know how I’d make it, and yet somehow, every single time, God made a way.
And then came a different loss. My belongings, my music studio equipment, my clothing line equipment, all stolen from Public Storage. Thousands of dollars worth of things, work, vision, and investment gone overnight.
Yes, I felt broken down, but in hindsight, I was being built as well. One day, during my 1-hour walk to work, a video on YouTube played in my headphones and it caught me within the first minute. It was a sermon from a Pastor that felt directly meant for my situation. I started listening to him every day. I tithed. I had hope. It brought me closer to God than I’d ever been.
Eventually, I came back to D.C. It wasn’t easy. The city was unknown to me. My mom wasn’t here. My closest family and one of my best friends had passed on as well. But I knew I had to rebuild…
And I’m still rebuilding.
I have a place now, but I’m still praying for the financial breakthrough that ends this cycle for good. Still learning. Still walking by faith. But I know one thing for sure: I’m walking in what God already prepared for me.
My 30s were survival. My 40s are purpose.
This next chapter is about the rise. It’s about finally doing what God placed in me long ago. Creating, speaking through music, giving, building, and releasing everything that’s been sitting on my spirit.
So here’s what’s next:
New Music Project: I’m releasing a body of work that tells my story. It’s raw, reflective, and redemptive. It’s testimony through lyricism. If you read through this far, I added a new song from the project at the end of this post just for you.
THE CEO STYLE Reopening: My brand is returning stronger. Rooted in purpose, discipline, and intention. “Wear Intention. Change the World.” That’s the mission. Details to come about the launch date.
App Launch: I’ve built a space where you can experience my projects directly. My music, visuals, and message all in one place. Details to come about the launch date.
I’m still becoming. But this time, I’m walking fully in alignment. Backed by faith. Stepping into calling.
This is Chapter 40.
If you’re reading this and you’ve ever lost it all and had to rebuild from the ground up, this new music is for you. I hope you start walking in what God has already prepared for you.
New Track: Back Against The Wall by MORGANtheCEO
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