Unfinished Energy | Behind the lyrics, Track 01
You all hear the music when it’s complete, but there’s a lot that happens before I ever step to the microphone.
Every song on my project, Unfinished Energy, came from a deep place. Some were written in difficult moments, others came from reflection, frustration, or just wanting to talk my sh!t. Over these seven entries, I want to take you into the experiences, thoughts, and lyrics that shaped them.
“ I spent too many years caring about what you talkin bout.”
Cool, let’s talk about it…
Track 1. FTS
F*ck That Sh!t. Three words that sound dismissive on the surface, but carry a whole lot more underneath.
By the time I wrote this song, I had already come through a difficult chapter of my life. Things had settled enough for me to finally look back. And when I started looking back, I realized just how much energy I'd spent on things I couldn't control and outcomes I couldn't predict. I was learning to let go, and that’s what this song is about.
“Had the fear of choosing wrong, so my mind never rests,
now a n*** tired and burnt out”
One of the things I address is how much time I spent worrying about my future. I was so concerned about making the wrong decisions that the fear itself became exhausting. I wanted to make the right moves, but there's a point where constantly questioning yourself can become its own obstacle. Looking back, I could see how much energy I'd spent thinking about what I wanted to happen or what might happen instead of trusting myself to navigate whatever came next.
“ I had so much anger when I tried to bear trauma alone”
I also reflect on the anger I carried from having to deal with trauma alone after my mom died. Those experiences can change how a person views life, how they approach relationships and view people, and how much of themselves they’re willing to give. Trust me, I know. Grief can bring out emotions and sides of yourself that you don't always know what to do with. But I’m grateful to have made it through, but still struggle with what’s left behind.
“When you’re out of alignment, the truth runs away from the silence. A failure in all your assignments. I promise to God I be trying”
I’m reflecting on what it feels like to be disconnected from yourself and the direction you believe your life should be going. Sometimes you're so caught up in surviving and trying to figure out what to do next that you lose sight of what you already know deep down. And when things don't work out, it's easy to start looking at yourself as a failure.
“I promise to God I be trying” is probably one of my most vulnerable admissions in the song because despite how things may have looked or turned out, I really was trying. I didn't always have the answers, and I didn't always make the right decisions, but my intentions were never to fail. I was doing the best I knew how with where I was mentally, emotionally, and spiritually at the time.
I wanted FTS to introduce the mindset I was bringing into this project. It's not a declaration that I've figured everything out or that nothing bothers me anymore. It's more about recognizing the things that have consumed my energy and learning that I don't have to keep giving them that power.
Unfinished Energy is the full experience, and FTS is where I wanted that conversation to begin.
… But forreal though, sometimes you just have to say, "Fuck that shit."
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